In a word….I’m “Tired” I understand what the old folks mean when they say I’m tired. I’m tired! If I layed my soul out before you maybe you’d understand. We are real people with real issues! I know there are people out there who truely want success for all of us, but those other individuals…..boy do they get under my skin. Looking into my eyes is so much diffreent then looking out them. Everyday is a choice between ignoring my reality or succumbing to it. I swear if i was a believer in suicide it would have been over! lol Sometimes my reality is like ignoring a wounded victim while you save yourself…or at least that’s what it feels like. Sometimes I look at my dream and the sacrifices I will have to make and it just…doesn’t seem right. Like when did i become and individual or start believing in this individualistic selfcentered society??? What ever happened to family first??? It will take me 6 or more years to be what i want…..for what???? Why can’t I do it the ol African way and just just be a Midwife’s apprentice and study under her for 6years at least I will be mastering my field. It’s starting to feel like a waste of time. I Want it And I Want it Bad ….but this can’t be the only way…
Don’t get me wrong throwing in the towel…I’m just Tired..
With the economy the housing market and the education system where it is…..it just doesn’t feel real…..am I a part of the smoke screen……does anybody else feel like there’s something else going on???
