…what I’ve been up to..
the semester ended and so did my college experience…..I decided to take some time off to get my mind together and to save some money…. so far I guess everything is ok..
I’m working at whole foods full-time and I’m supposed to start a second job soon..
I wish I could spill my guts and tell the universe every thing thats wrong in my life but I don’t really want the sympathy …I just want things to be easier….the burdens to be lifted and happyness to return…
I wish I could go back to that origional master plan I created for my life….the one with all the money …the white picket fence the whole 9….
I miss the comfort of my dreamland…..reality is so ….whats the word……utterly dissappointing…
I keep questioning the purpose of our lives….
the religious me …would say …”the purpose of life is to reach perfection and return to the most high”
and yet life says ….”the purpose of this life is to dream big….aim small get a job work your whole life forget you hopes an dreams no need for time to yourself to seek perfection life’s about survivlal……sleep when you die”
I dunno its strange how with every new turn in my life the mask over my eyes begins to evaporate……These are all the things my mother worked so hard to protect me from,…..The idea that life isn’t as easy as it seems……
what else can I say……
Thanx Mom for giving me a Childhood
